Wednesday, May 15, 2002

 
Music: None - too lethargic to put on music
Greek week....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......I am possibly going throught the most mentally challenging part of my life ever right now....the bad news is that it doesn't look like it is going to end any time soon...I am only preparing myself for the mental and physical strain i will go through starting on saturday.......once again i am depressed.....i am begining to wonder if maybe i am a manic depressive person....when i am happy you've never met a happier person in your entire life but man when i hit the skids, i really go all out.....Greek week events so far have been ok.....I think we should've placed in lip sync....(maybe if rich wasn't such a fuckhead)......i was thuroughly impressed with the performance in god and goddess today tho......it was a real moving emotional experience for me......................................so i have 48 more hours of freedom and sleep left.....it is the following days that have me scared shitless right now.....There are all sorts of doubts in my mind if i am physically or mentally strong enough to endure the task set before me......If i can make it (which in my heart i know i can) i think i will definitely be a better person because of it......I just wish i could figure out the rest of my life that easily.....unlike most things this will be resolved in a fairly short amount of time compared to how long it has already taken me to try to resolve other issues......i am begining to wonder if i have what it takes to cut it in anything.....i just dont know..................................................................................... whenever i start to get down on myself i have to think of incubus.....dont let the world bring you down, not everyone here is that fucked up and cold, remember why came, and while youre around experience the warmth............it is the warmth that i crave right now......i am searching for the warmth in an amazing labyrinth of challenges.........i just dont know what to do..........................................................FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Old Man posted this at 8:53 PM.

Sunday, May 12, 2002

 
Music :Chariots of fire - John Williams
So this weekend was fucking amazing....We got really drunk friday night..I was drinkin tang and bacardi O. To quote J Wo it was a real panty dropper....I LOVE IT....So on Friday we stole a keg...It was shweet....A full keg untapped of hudy delight....granted hudy sux but it was free beer....I LOVE IT.....So then on saturday we started working on the keg of hudy again...i played my first few games of beer pong..it rulessss.....Kept drinking until like 4 am....i was so wasted it was great...i finally let myself go....i finally got to git really drunk and act like a total asshole....i hope i didnt bug anyone but i just had so much fun i cant wait to do it again this friday......I was so wasted when i was stumbling back to my room on sat. i stole a sign.....oops.....it was funny....i totally cant wait until friday so i can do it again bc i realized i can git really drunk without gittin emotional or trying to start a fight with someone like i have in the past.....well im gonna jet cause i got a lot of work to do, but i had the most amazing weekend and i am pretty happy right now :-)...................
The Old Man posted this at 8:43 PM.