Sunday, May 04, 2003

 
Music: Get Busy - Sean Paul
Mood: Depressed
Sitting here on a sunday i realized a lot. I am still alive, i still care about her a lot but i cannot make her care about me so i might as well quit. I realized im not happy. Im not happy with a lot of things. I need to find my happiness again. I lost the happy song i had in my heart for a very long time. I know i will find it again but i have no idea when or where i will find the words to motivate my life to the plateau it should be on. I shouldnt even say plateau because i should strive to continually improve and make myself a happier person.As for girls...... I think Brock said it exquisitely this weekend. "When you find the right girl, it will be effortless" as for life, i need to find a motivating force. i am lost. i dont know where i am going, i hardly know where ive been but i need to get my bearings. i can and will. the only question is how long will it take. in my heart i think i will soon know exactly who i am and where i want to be. im not sure thats going to be where i am at right now but as soon as i kno i will tell everyone. I do know that right now its like im in Vegas. I just gotta let it all ride. Life is slowly coming together, the part that hurts is that it is not fast enough for me.....
The Old Man posted this at 8:52 PM.