Wednesday, October 27, 2004

 
Music : Disturbed
Mood : Excited

So its about halfway through the autumn quarter 2004. Its been an exciting one so far full of a lot of joy, confusion, sadness, anger, and loneliness. We have a football game tonight (were 2-0 so far) I realized something funny the other night. I found my confidence. Something I haven't had in months if not years. It came back to me out of nowhere. I have more confidence now in dealing with people (especially girls) than I probably ever had. It is the greatest feeling in the world. I no longer have the same self image i had even two weeks ago. It is a renewed me ready to leave my mark on this world. I am ready for whatever is to be thrown at me. I am stronger now than ever. I am better prepared. Im ready to grind as hard as possible to graduate and push my way through the real world where i can make an even bigger impact. People used to (and still do) tell me im amazing. I believe now. Everyone in my life right now is so special i can' explain it. Some people are so awesome they don't know it. One person in particular has been the one that has given me this gift of confidence and I can't thank you enough if you read this. On a different tone, I wish I could figure out what is going on in one section of my life. A few questions need answered and i have faith they will. I am now also patient enough to wait without losing my temper over it like i have in the past.

On a sad note, i found out like 3 weeks ago my step-grandmother has an inoperable brain tumor. They didnt expect her to live past a week but shes done it so far. I got to see her this weekend and that brought me solid piece of mind. She will be missed by many when her time does come but she has lived a great life and she will not feel the pain.

STAY STRONG EVERYONE. GO PHI KAP INTRAMURALS.


The Old Man posted this at 3:01 PM.